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| I am done with xanga for right now....I need to stop telling my problems to everyone....cause afterwards it feels good to get every thing out on paper....but "they" always come back. So I am going to keep a journal....one only me and God can read and let Him hear my problems.....perhaps they won't find there way back?..... In love, and go with grace, - JL | | |
| And I'm off....I love to RUN.....I found that I am really good at stuff your not supposed to be good at. Like........lying. Yep, I even confuse myself.....now sometimes....they are little fibs but then again there is no such thing as a little fib....because fibs always GROW into lies. I feel with this new understanding of how I work....I feel like I am understanding myself......OBVIOUSLY I don't condon lying....it's just good to have self-realization. The sweet is never quite as sweet....without the sour. OHHH....and favorite quote so far is by Robert Frost, when asked why he, a modern, still used rhyme schemes he said: "Writing poetry without rhyme or rhythm is like playing tennis with the nets down....its fun still but what's the point?" | | |
| Well this entry will be entitled, "When I mess up". When I mess up it is because of selfishness, insecurity, or fear or all three. All I have to do is follow God until the end of the road and just pray that the mistakes I made.......the feelings that I've hurt..........the inconsiderate things that I've done will be forgiven.......because I will mess up....I will be selfish.....but I am called to be a leader I need to step up and and let Him LEAD me...............I hope I am not more that you bargained for. | | |
| my head is crowded....feelings of love and pain, one in the same? Is this how it really is.....or do people just say it is to make them feel better about the mess their in? I swore I would never give in...is it no use...? I guess the Foo Fighters said it.....someone IS getting the best of me.....but what do you do when you give so much and it doesn't look like they are giving as much......do you become mad....fellings of unfufillment........like I am maybe being cheated.......? When you put all your heart out there.....and you only see a little being put out for you.....do you run or stay till they do? | | |
| Have you ever seen these pre concieved ideas about who Jesus was......sometimes I wish I wasn't a christian.......not let me reface that a little better for ya'll so you don't worry about me!!!....I just wish that I wasn't painted with the same brush as the guys who wave their bible in the air and scream damnation from their pores....from their wrinkle in their forehead to the snearing look they give people who don't take their pamplets( I mean...really....who would?....."your going to hell!!!"......person1, "oh really let me read more on that..") but any way....what is it???? with us, I mean......people see us as guys like the one expressed earlier or people like Ned Flanders!!!!.....WHY!!!!(I will complete this thought LATER!!! sorry).....(chanled by Matt) | | |
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